Let me first say... How much I hate when Internet stops working and I have to rewrite an entire blog. Day after day, I wake up, and I wish I didn't. I am a bundle of self-deprication and self-loathing. And I am sorry to all those who I offend with my hypocrisy. It isn't often that I have this self-destructive, suicidal state of mind, but when I do, it is because I feel alienated. I have reached a state of cynicism whereby I see no point in living for others than myself. And I do hate this, but there is nothing I can do about my current ever-increasing hate towards humanity. Right now, there's nothing I wish for more, than to return to a better state of mind. Don't get me wrong. I do not hate everybody and I know I will always have good friends to support me and this thought keeps me alive. Right now, they are not with me, but I hope to see them soon. I am no longer who I used to be, but maybe feeling this way once in a while is good for building character. I used to think I knew who I was, but right now my life seems purposeless. The best remedy, maybe, is to keep looking for that spark that I lost long ago, or maybe, never truly had.
Ok, so, what is the point of life? It seems to be a very existentialist question. Well, putting it in the most simple words I can, I think the point of life is to ask questions and seek answers. A life is only worth living insofar as we continue asking questions and challenging our own assumptions. This is because only by challenging the things we already know and take for granted is that it becomes possible for civilization to move forward and escape from stagnation. Just take the examples of Galileo and so many other scientists who revolutionized the thinking of humankind in their times by challenging the knowledge humans took for granted. So, when one feels tired and does not feel like seeking answers, ask yourself, is it worth living this life? You may live the most relaxed, accommodated life and be happy, yet, true fulfillment comes only from liberating oneself from the frames of paradigms in which one has be put by a society that seeks people from looking change as much as possible. It is of the utmost importance to ask yourselves questions, and then proceed to ask questions in the wider community; and eventually a breach will open, a thought will shatter, and you will feel the ground opening at your feet as you come to realize you have just shifted the paradigms. No longer is the Earth flat, and no longer is it Ok for us humans to continue committing the atrocities we have committed during so many years. Nevermind what other people say they think is right or wrong, is true or false. What matters here is for you to come to your own conclusions based on a thorough research and hammering of thoughts. The moment you find a thought that can't be shattered, you know you have a treasure in your hands.
I was born in a very special place: a city blessed under the shining sun of the Incas, surrounded by three protector vulcaoes, a place irreplaceable in my heart; a city I once thaught to be the very best. Its food, weather and traditions are unique as its white-vulcanic-stone architecture. There are a millions stories to be told about this place, yet now I am going to tell you a different one. It was a sunny Fall morning when a little boy was born in a clinic that overlook the city center. For 15 years that boy slept, ate, made friends, played and cried in the city that saw him com to life. Yet for the last 4 years, he's been living a very different place. It was not long before he realized that there was more to the world than just the place he came from. There were people from other cultures, people who ate different types of food, had different customs and led different lifestyles. Not everybody that comes from another place is bad and evil. There are also good people who share many things with you, and that changed the whole perspective of the boy. If he were asked: "would you rather live back where you came from?" he'd likely say yes; but he wouldn't mind, and in fact, he might enjoy living somewhere else as well, getting to know een more people, food, customs and lifestyles. He's no longer bound to any single territory and he feels home whenever he's with the people he trusts. To finallize, here are some pictures of the dawn taken from the roof a very nice hotel in the centre of this's boy's town.
Life is so complicated it has so many question we never will be able to answer them all, so why bother reading this Blog if not even I will be able to give you the answers you look for. The answer seems to be simple: "Not because we cannot answer everything should we stop thinking" .
The secret of a meaningfull life is to continue asking questions, to continue thinking and continue bringing change forwards in society. Conformism, although seemingly easy, is NOT the answer. So... you may ask yourself who I am.
Well, I think it's time to introduce myself. I am just another being who is roaming this earth in seek of happinness. With my very young 19 years in age I've probably witnessed more than many people in their whole life in this earth and this has taught me many things, the most important being, that I barely know anything about anything, but one thing I know, it that for many, the ultimate goal in life is happinness. This ideology brings many things in perspective.
For instance, I have come to relegate political ideology to one of least importance in the fulfillment of our most basic fundamental needs and wants. Because right now, if we don't protect our environment, we might not even have a world in which we can be politicaly active in the future. That beatiful town in the picture above used to be once a paradise for people with allergies, for people seeking a more peaceful life and a more traditional lifestyle. Nowadays it has become one of South America's most polluted and congested cities. I mean Arequipa, which once had a deep blue sky and starlit night can now brag of an economic growth which is among the highest in the continent, a growth which has brought with it an oversupply of polluting vehicles like taxis and minibusses, 5 malls and the general deterioration of the health and lifestyle of its inhabitants. Due to global warming, the vulcano which oversees the city has almost lost all of its snowcape. There is no more snow in its top during summer, unlike 5 or 10 years ago, when I was still a child. Its farms, its river and its title as world heritage are at stake, and unless we act soon by reducing our extreme consumist trends, what was once a beatiful city might be lost forever.
"It doesn't mean anything" - it's probably not the nicest way to start a blog, however I do think that given the circumstances it is the most appropriate one.-"It doesn't mean anything"- and it's true. Don't create yourself high expectations about something, or you will be disappointed.
“It doesn’t mean anything”-these words might seem hollow to some people, but as Pythagoras once said, it’s better to say a few wise words, than a thousand hollow words. And these are my wise words to anybody who might be reading this out there: “It doesn’t mean anything”. People tend to believe everything has a meaning. People seek meaning to life, to their actions, to their past, present and future. They seek meaning in God, in going to heaven, in eternal life; but then, once again, they are faced with the terrible true that it doesn’t mean absolutely nothing.
It is our given human nature, to seek for meaning and explanation in things. Our mind doesn’t properly get the concept that something meaningless can exist. But most of things on earth are meaningless. Most of our actions are meaningless. So, why do we always keep looking for the meaning of things? I don’t know the answer to this question. However, I know it can be dangerous. Our mind is like a machine that fills in blank spaces when it doesn’t find the answers in its surrounding, in our tangible world. And if people are not able to discern between reality and the blanks filled in by their minds, they can create themselves wrong images of people, things, etc which could lead to terrible misunderstandings.